Taken during the Trans-Rockies Run in 2011
Back when running was the ONLY thing!
More importantly, I'm just less focused - mentally, physically, emotionally - on running these days. Don't get me wrong, I still love running, and it's very high on the priority list, but... I'm tired! I don't get nearly enough sleep. And mentally, I don't have it in me right now to push myself through the discomfort when I'm having a tough day. If the pace feels too hard, I slow down. Maybe that doesn't sound revolutionary, but I used to have more mental stamina, and it's made me aware how much it is mental.
With Jenny at the Thirsty 13 in 2014
Another difference is that it doesn't really bother me to feel this way. While I was pregnant with Swede, I was really worried that I wouldn't ever get back in shape, that I wouldn't ever feel like myself again. But now... I know that's not true. I know I'm still me. I know the drive to train hard will come back. So I feel OK that I'm taking it easy right now.
With Laura at the Kiss Me Dirty 5K in 2012
PS: I might cut my hair this short again... Thoughts?
I'd better amend that last sentence. Most of the time, I feel OK that I'm taking it easy right now. The first two races I have planned this summer, the Narrow Gauge 10-Mile this weekend, and the Steamworks Half Marathon on June 11th, are both races that I've done several times before. So it can be hard to know that I'll be setting "PWs" this year. It's difficult to not compare myself... to myself! Let alone to other moms who are crushing it six months post-partum. (I'm looking at you Kristen!)
With my mom after Steamworks in 2012
I really do love running still, and I'm super excited to start doing races again, despite the PW component. I like the camaraderie of race day, and it really helps me stay dedicated and motivated to training when I have a specific goal in mind. I've been thinking lately that I'd like to get one more set of PRs in the next five years or so. Especially in the half marathon (1:49:57) and the marathon (4:01:12). But that is a plan, and a conversation, for another day!
To my fellow runners... Have you had stages in life where running was more or less important to you? Is anyone else racing this weekend?
(I'm linking up with Marcia, Patti, and Erika for Tuesdays on the Run!)